Dying is hard work!!


So that is why it’s onwards and upwards from here. I have noticed at times that certain drugs I need to take to keep the cells at bay, give a higher rate of awareness and alertness. I sit here in a daydream and suddenly a long outstanding question pops up along with the more appropriate solution. Could be handy.

Family dynamics have been taking up a major part of my/our emotional input and output. We are basically the same family but factions within have been there for years and bounding out in droves these days. So far. so good. I notice the games….twists out of the blue…….it’s controllable and in a way amusing. I have to ensure nobody else takes something to the extreme when it’s not the case. Personalities!!!


This past week or so has been busy, fuzzy, off balance, pleasant, emotional, happy, frustrating and much more. It would have been easier to cope with the unexpected hitches….although I’m fooling myself with that statement. It’s never easy.

We were blessed with a visit from Tim’s cousin Mary for a few days. Such a great visit! I look forward to the next visit!

Mary (my mother in law), was very kind to make little cakes for the staff in Oncology. They seemed to be a hit which is good. She made a slightly bigger one for Kirk….he said he couldn’t accept  gifts, the cake versus money persuaded him I think.

So this week for me has been the come downer as after any chemo. Always very tiring and energy sapping, so I guess to a family member watching from the sides, the various exhausted styles I am dumped into could appear daunting and scary. It’s all part of the trek.

I am at a place


Today, the family went shopping for the meaty treats of a Christmas dinner. Later in the week of course the sweet and the salad side of stuff to bring into the house for over eating.

We had planned to go easy this year. No fuss. I think it will be a clear run across the day and I’m looking forward to a great day.


Because I tend to sleep more at the moment, the shopping, cooking, cleaning and everyday part of running this house is done by others. So spoiled I am!! Without this help I shudder to think how Tim and I would live! I feel for those who have it any harder.

The other day I was dozing and woke myself up with a deep chuckle and lots of amusement about a password I’d suddenly remembered and no one else could recall recently. Small things amuse. I’m enjoying my thoughts between naps and sort of worked out stuff to get down in a document, to pass to Adrian for the family history tree/s. I can’t imagine how my biog would be of any interest, even to the kids down the track. I’d like Tim and others to expand on this blog one day with their experiences and feelings, and make it a fully rounded story.

Our current schedule is being ruled a little by the drug timing. All new times etc and we have been trying to adjust to a fairly (well it is….it’s strong!), strong new comer. It’s the matter of trying different times and pill partnerships.

I’ll try anything! Logic tells me that if the cells are absent or at least small in the background, (I feel they ‘re still absent though), I have a huge chance of keeping on keeping on!


We drive to Brisbane tomorrow for top ups or whatever is required. I’ll keep you all posted. It’s the ‘us’ time Tim and enjoy….we laugh at anything at times. Annoying to others I’d say.

Today Daisy gets her grooming done. Will have to have a before and after pic! She is so scruffy right now….but adorable and full of love and sticky grass things.






16 thoughts on “Dying is hard work!!

  1. Tink the Belle December 20, 2016 at 9:54 pm Reply

    They say laughter is the best medicine. I truly believe that😂

  2. joskehan December 20, 2016 at 10:04 pm Reply

    It is for sure. xxxxx

  3. Doreen December 20, 2016 at 10:40 pm Reply

    Thank you for sharing another update. These rituals like Christmas take on a whole new meaning when someone’s unwell. So much love and support. And you haven’t lost your sense of humour.. luv, hugs and healing. Dxxx

  4. Paula Martin December 20, 2016 at 11:11 pm Reply

    Keep on keeping on, Jo. You are amazing.

  5. ursula dewar. December 21, 2016 at 12:39 am Reply

    Sounds as if things are going along just fine for you. This is good news. God Bless and prayers from me.

  6. Robert Fray December 21, 2016 at 9:07 am Reply

    So now Daisy is a groomed four-legged person, and you are looking at her like an adoring mama! Hope you and Tim can pamper yourselves through Christmas (though how it can be Christmas when it’s whateveritisintheshade, beats me). He mustn’t flog himself into the ground, ‘cos that way he won’t enjoy it. the best wishes I can send to you both are heading your way. Happy Christmas! xxx

    • joskehan December 28, 2016 at 11:02 am Reply

      We like our Chrissy Days to be hot lol. xxxxx

  7. annieseaton26 December 21, 2016 at 10:56 am Reply

    Keep those little suckers at bay with your positivity and attitude

  8. Trevor Belshaw December 21, 2016 at 3:31 pm Reply

    great to see your SOH is still as strong as ever. Good luck with fighting those little buggers, Jo. Hope you get over the chemo hangover soon. 🙂

  9. Gerri Bowen December 21, 2016 at 7:42 pm Reply

    I really like your attitude, Jo! Laughing, finding smile-worthy moments when you recall something you thought you’d forgotten, and being with your loved ones. Keep on keeping on and keep doing what you’ve been doing! Love you! ❤

    • joskehan December 28, 2016 at 11:08 am Reply

      trying to keep things light with fun memories xxxx

  10. Kay Burnett December 22, 2016 at 11:18 am Reply

    Great blog. Keep on keeping on. Onwards and upwards ! 🎄❤️🎄

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