So that is why it’s onwards and upwards from here. I have noticed at times that certain drugs I need to take to keep the cells at bay, give a higher rate of awareness and alertness. I sit here in a daydream and suddenly a long outstanding question pops up along with the more appropriate solution. Could be handy.
Family dynamics have been taking up a major part of my/our emotional input and output. We are basically the same family but factions within have been there for years and bounding out in droves these days. So far. so good. I notice the games….twists out of the blue…….it’s controllable and in a way amusing. I have to ensure nobody else takes something to the extreme when it’s not the case. Personalities!!!
This past week or so has been busy, fuzzy, off balance, pleasant, emotional, happy, frustrating and much more. It would have been easier to cope with the unexpected hitches….although I’m fooling myself with that statement. It’s never easy.
We were blessed with a visit from Tim’s cousin Mary for a few days. Such a great visit! I look forward to the next visit!
Mary (my mother in law), was very kind to make little cakes for the staff in Oncology. They seemed to be a hit which is good. She made a slightly bigger one for Kirk….he said he couldn’t accept gifts, the cake versus money persuaded him I think.
So this week for me has been the come downer as after any chemo. Always very tiring and energy sapping, so I guess to a family member watching from the sides, the various exhausted styles I am dumped into could appear daunting and scary. It’s all part of the trek.
Today, the family went shopping for the meaty treats of a Christmas dinner. Later in the week of course the sweet and the salad side of stuff to bring into the house for over eating.
We had planned to go easy this year. No fuss. I think it will be a clear run across the day and I’m looking forward to a great day.
Because I tend to sleep more at the moment, the shopping, cooking, cleaning and everyday part of running this house is done by others. So spoiled I am!! Without this help I shudder to think how Tim and I would live! I feel for those who have it any harder.
The other day I was dozing and woke myself up with a deep chuckle and lots of amusement about a password I’d suddenly remembered and no one else could recall recently. Small things amuse. I’m enjoying my thoughts between naps and sort of worked out stuff to get down in a document, to pass to Adrian for the family history tree/s. I can’t imagine how my biog would be of any interest, even to the kids down the track. I’d like Tim and others to expand on this blog one day with their experiences and feelings, and make it a fully rounded story.
Our current schedule is being ruled a little by the drug timing. All new times etc and we have been trying to adjust to a fairly (well it is….it’s strong!), strong new comer. It’s the matter of trying different times and pill partnerships.
I’ll try anything! Logic tells me that if the cells are absent or at least small in the background, (I feel they ‘re still absent though), I have a huge chance of keeping on keeping on!
We drive to Brisbane tomorrow for top ups or whatever is required. I’ll keep you all posted. It’s the ‘us’ time Tim and enjoy….we laugh at anything at times. Annoying to others I’d say.
Today Daisy gets her grooming done. Will have to have a before and after pic! She is so scruffy right now….but adorable and full of love and sticky grass things.